HE RULES

2010-12-07T22:21:00.004+08:00

So feel like going somewhere

never come back

tired of life

wanna to start a fresh new life

surely things i will miss

like family and true friends.

2010-12-07T22:21:00.001+08:00

So feel

Him who holds all my relationships/friendships and dreams

2010-12-03T09:22:00.005+08:00

Looking up my sky
seeing whats the difference
for i see it not the same i saw
time brought changes

all things
i grab i hold
some fades away like dust
breaks my heart

Why i so cherish all these
still i make mistakes

Because i love them so much
Afraid of losing them all.
its a flesh thing
but my heart never lie
its deep beneath me
my heart never lie

Man's heart is always separate from the curse of the flesh.
this is where the holy spirit dwells in us.

Until then I'll realize
Jesus is always right by my side
though i walked through the valley of shadows
He never abandon me.
if not he would have not came to die for me at the cross
given me every good he has
I'm alive today
truly full of life

He who hold all things
are whole
are beautiful
filled with wonders
Even things fade away
All shall gather as whole in His name
For this
Its all glory to Him
To whom the highest of all praise
Our great I AM
Our Loving Father!

new song of "Crows & Locusts"

2010-11-05T15:19:00.003+08:00

It was the year

The crows and the locusts came
The fields drained dry their rain
The fields are bleeding
Daddy don't cry, it'll be alright
She put some water on the wound
And hums a little tune
While the courage blood's on the ground
pooling, pooling

See the murder, and the swarm descend
And the night is getting thick
The moon telling her tricks
yeah betray her every time
It was the year
The crows and the locusts came
The fields drained dry their rain
The fields are bleeding
It was the age
the foxes came for the fields
we were bleeding as we bowed to kneel
and pray for mercy, pray for mercy
The rumble is low and the heat is high
Got a feeling that there's rain out in the oil black sky
Gonna chase away the devil when the sun does rise
Gonna bleed the blood
Gonna bleed the blood
It was the year
The crows and the locusts came
The fields drained dry the rain
The fields are bleeding
It was the age
The foxes came for the fields
We were bleeding as we bowed to kneel
And prayed for mercy, prayed for mercy
She limps on up o the top of a mount
Looks at the faulty harness
Feels her sweat in the ground and the burn in her nose
And the knowing in her guts
Something's still gonna grow
She ain't leavin' til it does.
What can wash away my sin
Nothing but the blood
What can make me whole again
Nothing but the blood

song by Brooke Fraser,

tiled: Crows and locusts (2010)

the world needs LOVE. But what's the meaning of love?

2010-10-29T21:50:00.004+08:00

The world needs love.

True Love.

But what is the meaning of love?

People in this world, are lost like lost sheeps

what is the meaning of love?

heart is empty..

transgression increases..

a person who's lonely.His/her heart is empty..though things they wish to be gone, are gone. Their heart still remain empty. Their needs is love..

words

2010-10-08T17:00:00.002+08:00

"sometimes when you are soaring in life, some things u have to let go (u know in ur heart), but of course, first , LET GOD,then LET GO. Only when u willing to cast ur cares or anything that hold u back upon Him who cares for you, then u can let go."

-because some times "things may eat you up"...

- like an eagle which is always soaring and mighty as it was, but when it got of His prey, the eagle couldn't let go or it didn't want to let go, although its prey had hurt him. Because the eagle couldn't let go, it's hurt and killed by its prey.

which can be say that that's no longer the eagles's prey.

I listen

2010-10-08T16:48:00.007+08:00

i listen to this song. love it. felt like dancing! but 1st i need to be more open, and dare i suppose.haha.

i love electronic dance, i mean the music genre. I love quite alot of genre, this is one of them.

and, her new song! kinda like her, she's HOT.

writing songs

2010-10-07T18:00:00.006+08:00

Kinda think of it.

I felt like, i really love blogging. Although i prefer it to be private, i still love to share.

It's alright, because not many read my blog, maybe some passer-by or someone, haha.

So it can be still kinda private?

Writing songs,

hmm.. since young, like 9 year old, i never thought of writing songs, dun even have the interest in writing, except when i was sec 2, i remember, cause that's the 1st time i start writing.

Because i felt that that is the way of how i express my heart out which i starting to write songs on chinese. (i love music alot since i was 3? i guess. And i remember by a photo of me singing with a mic. i love singing then, 3yr old. can you imagine it grows to be a passion until today, though in the past it doesnt sounds good, maybe i didnt use a correct technique. But i am very sure that today i can sing well because of Christ Jesus. His glory in my life.) Until today i felt writing songs in chinese really express out a lot of my view or things in my heart. As you know chinese language has a very rich vocabulary. But, every time i wanna write about something, the words i used isnt enough to express out what i wanna say from my heart, some more i do not know about any music instrument or even musically gifted. So i gave up!

(i still kept the notebook , its a memory man.)

Its really god after knowing Him, knowing what my desires, passions and dreams i had which i believe is God, that placed all these in my heart. Until i knew Christ, i slowly felt i been musically gifted thought i do not know how to play any instrument (but i wanna learn for my songs), i can feel i am flowing in the rhythm of music. I love writing songs. He gifted me like singing, an anointed voice, song writing which became better and better, glory to glory, for myself as what i see i know is better because this is what Daddy God taught me. But i know i have to let ppl see, maybe like sean goh or joy or kailin or maybe someone else, so i can learn more, as they can see what area i can improve. Somemore they are all placed around me by God! I know they are most welcome to see and help me?.. i actually believe, haha. because angie told me. but im still not dare yet! until when i ready ba. i know it wont be forever like this, if u know what i mean. Because i have Christ! He is my hope. A hope that is alive, so true!

He had prepared a path for me. a righteous path. that i will learn things along the way. receiving things, amazing things. challenges along the way for me to learn for good. ETC.

What i know is, "He had gone before me and He said is GOOD!VERY GOOD!. "

so im kinda excited at most time! :D

One day, i doubt of myself or even kinda insult the gift of writings that Daddy God gave me? (because i asked Daddy God, the gift of writings because i really really so love to write songs for him! for His glory! or even cellular songs but not really that, cause it will contain fruits of life.) Of am i really writing songs in a right way or did i write it well? etc.

i got depressed with it, almost give up writing. But, one day i read brooke faser blog. One of the post titled :"songwriting series part 2". I read it, and it proves that i am writing in a way like her, except that i dun have any music instrument, so no music but melody. Btw it also tells me that writing songs there's no fixed way to write a song. yeah.

btw this is what i got into. simply it said that the melody (that i apply for a song) will speaks more than a thousand words than of what i had written in a song.

this what she wrote "

Cohesion with Lyric
One of the key question I always ask myself about my songs is: “Is my melody mirroring what my lyric is saying?” (and vice versa). I usually find that one will always point me toward the other.

With C.S. Lewis Song, ............. I wrote multiple sets of lyrics for that song before the right words began to form, in the right order. The sets of lyrics I had written prior to the right ones were perfectly fine, but they weren’t what the melody was saying. The melody wasn’t flippant or boisterous – it was delicate, searching, serious – and so pointed me away from what the words shouldn’t be.

so i kinda motivated, and continue to write.haha.

Writing songs became my passion slowly.

sometimes i really do not know why, every time when i really felt giving up or stop writing songs because im tired and songs i wrote no nobody see b4 except a close friend of mine, and i am very scare and afraid, if i let ppl see or read the songs i wrote, i may get a hurting or disappointed comment to me. Supernaturally i'm motivated again. And sometimes i felt like give up writing because i dun know what the shit to write, though i am so overwhelmed to write something. (but of cos, i'm just being anxious). His mercy and favour is upon me always.

Friends will tell me verses from Philippians 4:6-7. It happens more than one time. By the way its coincidence. Or sometimes some testimonies. Or i remember on that day i felt like stop writing, on that day is youth choir pract. and joy was talking to us about something. I remember one thing she said " keep writing, no matter what, dun stop. Its a gift", as she talking about writing or talent stuff. I think is about the open mic.

Is like, when i fall, he picked me up again, but raise me up higher glory.

As im writing, suddenly i felt like writing some hip or hot song, dance! "electronic dance"-genre. "電音"

okay.. Random...haha..

My soul, spirit is boost for His glory..

wrapped in your arms

2010-09-29T21:12:00.002+08:00

this is the song to you...

Is this the whole picture
Or is it just the start?
Is this the way you love me?
You're capturing my heart
I used to try and walk alone
But I've begun to grow
And when you tell me just to rest
I'm finally letting go
I let go

And I'm here to stay
Nothing can separate us
And I know, I'm ok
You cradle me gently
Wrapped in your arms.... I'm home

I'm seeing so much clearer
Looking through your eyes
I could never find a safer place
Even if I tried
All the times I've needed you
You've never left my side
I'm clinging to your every word
Don't ever let me go
Don't let go

And I'm here to stay
Nothing can separate us
And I know, I'm ok
You cradle me gently
Wrapped in your arms.... I'm home
I'm home...(ohoh ohoh ohoh ohoh)
I'm wrapped in your arms.

And I'm here to stay
Nothing can separate us
And I know, I'm ok
You cradle me gently
Wrapped in your arms
And I'm here to stay
Nothing can separate us
And I know, I'm ok
You cradle me gently
Wrapped in your arms.... I'm home
I'm home

For Those who wait. (like me..)

2010-09-28T12:23:00.005+08:00

this(below) is what i need. the song (above) reminded me, and voiced out my heart.

Philippians 4 : 4-7(NIV)

⁴Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! ⁵Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. ⁶Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. ⁷And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

IM BACK TO BLOG. but will not be always blogging....

2010-09-19T01:32:00.005+08:00

i found my real true desire passion. not cheating myself anymore. Through a journey, realising a lot of things.

Knowing more abt myself. you may felt that it will be quite bad or a problem of not knowing urself or understands yourself. But, i really thank God for His grace in my life and for me. A God who knows me so well, love me so much than how much more i love Him. It always not less, always more than enough.
He is my el shaddai, emmauel and adonai, yaweh, God of abraham, issac and jacob.
In whom i will trust!

NOW!! i know myself. but of cos there are more to say.>>>>>>>>>>

"A heart with with so many dreams. But, one of my biggest dream is music, is my passion of all, the greatest connection to every heart.
It can be fun/joy/thankful, full of praise and worship, or even sad/heartbroken.
Will love to bring the best performance/entertainment to the audience, God's children and of cos God, which is my heart's desire but i will need grace for breakthrough of myself.
Love to sing. That through God's favour in my life, my voice/ vocal is irrevocably anointed and getting so much better and blessed. And i got myself into learning SLS.
Writing songs of His love, etc, & others,haha. But hope to compose awesome music for songs i written. Until the end all glory goes to my abba!.
I love Voilin because it symbolise myself, my emotions.
Many things in life, i wanna learn, like piano, guitar, dance.
doing design now in school, i love it!
im in my church's choir which is my stepping stone.

I KNOW
IN EVERY SEASON, NEW GREATER THINGS ARE COMING.

I LOVE MY GOD /godly friends/bros and family, with the love of Christ!"

Downhere - How Many Kings

2010-01-24T00:28:00.002+08:00

i found this song cover in facebook, sang by my friends from tp. Of course it was awesome!
ppl who played the song are awesome!
but the importantly the song that claire sang is power.. haha. and the song is very meaningful
i agreed every words or sentences they wrote.
btw the song i upload below is sang by the actual singer or played by a band.

btw this song is "How many kings - downhere"

Follow the star to a place unexpected
Would you believe after all weve projected
A child in a manger

Lowly and small, the weakest of all
Unlikeliest hero, wrapped in his mother's shawl
Just a child
Is this Who weve waited for?

How many kings stepped down from their thrones?
How many lords have abandoned their homes?
How many greats have become the least for me?
How many Gods have poured out their hearts
To romance a world that has torn all apart?
How many fathers gave up their sons for me?

Bringing our gifts for the newborn savior
All that we have whether costly or meek
Because we believe
Gold for his honor and frankincense for his pleasure
And myrrh for the cross hell suffer
Do you believe, is this Who weve waited for?
Its who weve waited for

How many kings stepped down from their thrones?
How many lords have abandoned their homes?
How many greats have become the least for me?
How many Gods have poured out their hearts
To romance a world that has torn all apart?
How many fathers gave up their sons for me?
Only One did that for me

All for me
All for you
All for me
All for you

walls

2010-01-23T17:21:00.003+08:00

In everyone's heart there is a barrier or a giant and walls stopping u or challenging u in some ways to reach their meet point, even prides in you which also shows self effort, ur own glory which other words is, man's glory which is temporal. glory and prides comes from God or to Him which is permanent.
btw i felt is true that, man's glory is no use, it cant give you anything, but of course in the process you go through all stuff and earn the glory (works of flesh = fallen creation, which bring nothing.), it brings u nothing and turned u into lonely guy in heart. I rather look to Daddy God's glory for me, "to Him be the glory" who gives me everything when the world cant give me anything because it had been fallen.
""Because of Jesus, i hit the mark [the red bull] most of the time which is success! i may have missed the mark but its not forever because i am in Christ Jesus.
but by right, in christ u will hit the mark all the time, a successful man always but because sometimes under flesh.""
they are darkness in u BUT there is also light = Jesus Christ, yeah
darkness in u represents yourself, your own remain works or chains of your mind, eg bad habits.
But thank God for His word which is life, like in the bible.
they refresh our mind/soul and bring life=light into every parts.
it is also one of the reason that we go church, to receive more.

"church is Christ's bride. christ church represents the blody of christ."

everyone should be what they should be what the lyrics had written:

Tear Down The Walls lyrics

Tear down the walls see the world
Is there something we have missed
Turn from ourselves
Look beyond
There is so much more than this

And I don’t need to see it to believe it
I don’t need to see it to believe it
Cause I can’t shake this
Fire burning deep inside my heart

Look to the skies hope arise
See His majesty revealed
More than this life there is love
There is hope and this is real

Cause I don’t need to see it to believe it
I don’t need to see it to believe it
Cause I can’t shake this fire burning
Deep inside my heart

This life is Yours and hope is rising
As Your glory floods our hearts
Let love tear down these walls
That all creation would
Come back to You
It’s all for You

Your Name is glorious
Glorious
Your love is changing us
Calling us
To worship in spirit and in truth
As all creation returns to You

Oh for all the sons and daughters
Who are walking in the darkness
You are calling us to lead them back to You
We will see Your spirit rising
As the lost come out of hiding
Every heart will see this hope we have in You

Cause I don’t need to see it to believe it
I don’t need to see it to believe it
Cause I can’t shake this fire burning
Deep inside my heart

This life is Yours and hope is rising
As Your glory floods our hearts
Let love tear down these walls
That all creation would
Come back to You
It’s all for You

Your Name is glorious
Glorious
Your love is changing us
Calling us
To worship in spirit and in truth
As all creation returns to You

you raise me up!

2010-01-21T21:07:00.002+08:00

This is what u are lord, my daddy God of almighty and love , grace.
always there for me, even i'm down i can feel that u are so close to me, ur warm embrace.

a new song just came with the flow

2010-01-04T18:25:00.003+08:00

Song: There is no one like you

your mighty name
above all names
names yet to come
but your name will always be above all
the name is Jesus
My God

the powerful one
who loves the world
bring peace to the storm
is not the nails that kept Him on the cross
but His love that kept Him there

no matter where i am
what wrongs i have done
or sins i have made
i had forgiven (through the blood of Jesus)
though the world may see me as nothing
but u Jesus
great and mighty
above all the nations
sees me precious.

there is no one like you
lord
there is no one like you
lord
became sacrificial for us.
i thank you jesus

in heart.

2009-12-30T15:25:00.001+08:00

i do not know why
felt like there is something missing
sorrow in my heart
i do not know why
but i am searching

there are a lot of people i love
much that i cant leave
church is one of them
they are all in my heart.
they all meant big to me
placed in my heart.
so precious
that i cant resist
ohh~

there is no lies hidden in me
towards every people
for love.
i love you.
is never a lie
it may not seems to be
because i am shy

but my heart is always true to love.
i love you
its never a lie

different versions of BAD ROMANCE

2009-12-26T23:21:00.006+08:00

Bad Romance by Lady Gaga.
is now HOT Song!!
But to me, the lyrics makes no sense.

the song is So "HIGH"!

but there's few different versions edit by people, since the song is so famous, so i'm not surprise.

i gonna share 2 only that i like. I think you will love it too.

avatar

2009-12-26T10:26:00.000+08:00

Went to watch with my beloved friends, kailin (yeah didnt spell her name wrong, lol.), dean and axel. They are best to me. True friends. trusted ones.
Love to go out with them haha. But of course they are not only people i love to go out to.
yeah went out with them before going for family Christmas dinner.
It was great. haha. fun and laughter.
Know what in the 1st place is already have a vision that we will sure watch the movie.
cause in the 1st place, we went amk hub wanna watch in cathay. but was SOLD OUT! When we queue half way. then was planing to just go for lunch since no other movies wanna watch because we planned to watch avatar, like with all hearts.
but grace grace, wisdom. we are so desperate and something came to my mind is jubilee, haha. i know the cinema was not good but still wanna watch. We walked slowly because confirm got seats de! haha. But thank god, at least the quality is good. It's just the seats and the srrounding is bad.

The movie is so awesome!
I love it. after the movie im still living in the world of avatar. haha.
I wont be surprise that this movie will be top above the titanic movie or same ranking.
The best film.
Because as u know ever since titanic, no other movies earn as much as titanic. Titanic is the best and the biggest film that ever made since then. Lord of the rings, is also the biggest film but not like titanic.
Its like titanic is ranked 1st, then Lord of the rings.

yeah. Must watch!
It's really that awesome!

I see you
I see you
Walking through a dream
I see you
My light in darkness breathing hope of new life
Now I live through you and you through me
Enchanting
I pray in my heart that this dream never ends
I see me through your eyes
Living through life flying high
Your life shines the way into paradise
So I offer my life as a sacrifice
I live through your love
You teach me how to see
All that’s beautiful
My senses touch your word I never pictured
Now I give my hope to you
I surrender
I pray in my heart that this world never ends
I see me through your eyes
Leona Lewis I See You lyrics found on http://www.directlyrics.com.com/leona-lewis-i-see-you-lyrics.html
Living through life flying high
Your love shines the way into paradise
So I offer my life
I offer my love, for you
When my heart was never open
(and my spirit never free)
To the world that you have shown me
But my eyes could not division
All the colours of love and of life ever more
Evermore
(I see me through your eyes)
I see me through your eyes
(Living through life flying high)
Flying high
Your love shines the way into paradise
So I offer my life as a sacrifice
And live through your love
And live through your life
I see you
I see you

Blessed Christmas!

2009-12-26T10:18:00.000+08:00

HEY EVERYONE!

BLESSED CHRISTMAS!!!! :)

I'm abit lazy to send sms to everyone, greetings. Because i have been doing many years.
But, i will want to wish everyone. So hope that everyone will see it.

CHRISTMAS IS LOVE..

It's all about Him. Jesus.

The reason of this day of celebration.

Season of love, hope and faith. Sharing lots of love and happiness.

Its all come for good!

It's such a very special moment, where see lights,

beautiful ones hanging beautifully across the streets and building.
Such a amazing thing that, no matter which race or religion they are, people in the world just celebrate Christmas!
How real can it be?
haha.
I love this season!
Of course everyday, every year, it's all filled with His presence.
I smiled with joy.
Jesus is King of kings!

-May your desires come to past, be fruitful and be blessed. Be favour among all and in the name of Jesus, every names shall bow!
-May your 3 wishes come to past, as 2 or 3 gather tgt, it shall be agree. since it's prayed in indoor stadium, so it's confirm de. haha. Awesome! It will be a journey in 2010 but it is good. I see it. vision. It is good! challenges may come, but it is for your good. Because god wanna open more rooms, big one, to let His blessings for you follow greatly and fruitfully in abundance! such a great god, I AM. All filled with His anointing! and presence of Hope, faith and love!

BLESSED CHRISTMAS EVERYONE! Especially to my family and all my friends

Thank you Abba Daddy God. I love you.

the best season!

2009-12-22T14:07:00.001+08:00

Christmas is the BEST SEASON OF THE YEAR!
I love christmas!
it's all about Jesus Christ!
Celebration of His goodness
a very special and precious season of all time
giving a best precious and wonderful feeling filled with His love!
and amazing grace!
wow it filled with romance with Jesus..

I love you Daddy God.

We are the reason.

"As little children we would dream of Christmas morn
Of all the gifts and toys we knew we’d find
But we never realized a baby born one blessed night
Gave us the greatest gift of our lives

*We were the reason that He gave His life
We were the reason that He suffered and died
To a world that was lost He gave all He could give
To show us the reason to live

As the years went by we learned more about gifts
The giving of ourselves and what that means
On a dark and cloudy day a man hung crying in the rain
All because of love
All because of love

*Chorus

I finally found the reason for living
It’s in giving every part of my heart to Him (every part to Him)
And all that I do every word that I say (you know I’ll be saying)
I’ll be giving my all just for Him, for Him (every thing for Him)

We are the reason that He gave His life
We are the reason that He suffered and died
To a world that was lost He gave all He could give (all that he could give all)
To show us the reason to live

#He is the reason to live
(don’t you know do you know the reason
that he came, oh he came to save us
when he gave his life for us) he suffered and died
To a world that was lost He gave everything (everything that He had He gave)
To show us the reason to live"

~~

"Ohh Daddy God you are my refugee
oh daddy god you are my fortress
ohh daddy god you hold my hands in my darkest hour

ohh daddy god you never leave me
oh daddy god you never forsake me
oh daddy god you always with me till the end of time

Ohh Daddy God.."

why is there no chinese royal family today?

2009-12-22T12:22:00.000+08:00

Why is there no chinese royal family today?
it just came to my mind when i was researching because some of the country like korea, they have royal family( btw the royal family has been dismissed few years ago). It is true that korea, like china, have a lot of royal family due to dynasties but Korea choose one as the official royal family and which is the last royal family or the latest one of the last dynasty which is "joseon dynasty" so i thought china will have too. But, it just came to my mind that it's quite understandable that china didnt made the last dynasty's royal family

(btw the former royal family of qing is still around! because at that point of time, during the fall of qing. Many members of the royal family are killed! only left a few like puyi who in the end took up the tile as emperor of Manchuria (which is part of china in the present) as the rising of Japan empire put him to be. and puyi was a puppet emperor for japan as manchuria was part of japan empire at the point of time. He was the puppet emperor until the fall of japan empire, which end during world war 2.)

because is NOT Han chinese royal family! Chinese is a race with great pride through out the whole history even when the country fall, their pride cause them to rise up again in power. As you can see now who is governing china now.
.. some of you may not be interested but cause i love history.

i came about this short answer. and its quite true.

"For one, what do you mean by China does not have a royal family? Do you mean that China don't have a royal family now? If that is so, then the answer is simple, because China does not have a Emperor/King/Ruler now, it has a President or a Chairman (I don't know why they started to call him the "President" since presidents suppose to be elected by the people and Chairman does not). But if you were referring to royal families in general... then things can get complicated as China went through so many dynasties and thus theres many many people with royal bloods. Some might be lost, for example the royal family of Qin Empire was all slaughtered by Xiang Yu after the Qin Empire was overthrown, some went into hidings when their empires were overthrown such as the "Zhu" family of Ming Dynasty. There are many who have changed their last names to escape the slaughtering (as a rule, the newly established government/empire tends to kill all of the overthrown royal families in hope that no one would use their name for uprising). After the late Qing Empire was overthrown, its royal family (family name; Aixin-Jueluo) changed many of their names, such as "Jin" and "Ai". Theres a news paper article about a man with the family name of Aixin-Jueluo working in a small office in Beijing, if the Qing Empire still stands, he would be a duke. Thailand and Malaysia are same as China, they went through difference Empires, ruled by different families. But unlike China, Thailand and Malaysia still retained a King, though no one knows how much power the King has. Now, as to Japan, the situation are different because Japaneses Emperor retained a pure blood lineage, for example the current Japanese Emperor is the decedent of the First Japanese Emperor. They were all from the same family. This is a rare and special thing considering how many different families ruled China and other nations. However, the main difference was that Japanese Emperors have no saying in their politics as the Prime Minister and Shogun (during ancient times) that ruled Japan. Japanese Emperors were only there for religious purposes as they believed the Emperors were the descents of the Sun God. The only reason why people would want the post of a Emperor/King/Ruler was to govern and rule, if the King/Emperor is useless, why would they want it? Thus, though there were many uprisings in Japan, the royal family stood in tact while the ruling Prime Minister/Shogun's family had been changed many times. Now to England, as far as I know, is no different than China and Thailand and Malaysia and Japan. It had been ruled by many different families, for example the Tudor and York and Stuart. The only reason why England still retain it's royal family was that it had been a great tradition and... the royal family's power is very limited due to the Magna Carta. The Parliament makes most of the decisions. I think this post above pretty much answers the question. There are certainly (Qing dynasty) Aisin gioro descendents around today, and sometimes you hear about them. They are the closest in time, so probably the easiest to find, but I guess descendents of Zhu, Zhao and other royal families going back also are around, but probably just all diluted in the general population. If the royal family no longer has power, there's not much reason to make any publicity for your belonging to it, except for some kind of nostalgia value. I remember when I lived in France, there were some nostalgic descendents of French royalty, but they had no real prominence at all, just more a personal nostalgia thing. Like others say too in their posts, there's a big difference between countries where monarchy is still in place, and countries with no monarchy anymore. Not all emperors had so many children, Qing after Daoguang Emperor had a dismal record, two children for Xianfeng, one girl -died quite young - and one boy, Tongzhi Emperor, died childless, and none for Guangxu or Puyi. Aisin Gioro descendents now are from other branches of the family."

2009-12-22T11:18:00.000+08:00

wow when i was doing researching of history of china, because i was watching a hk drama. "beyond the realm of conscience".
i found out that during Tang Dynasty, there's Christianity le. wow haha. i thought was ming dynasty.

2009-12-21T17:55:00.000+08:00

God said to me, "be yourself."
(He speak to me through the holy spirit who lives in me. and books/ statements i saw. So its a confirmation.)
thank you Daddy God.
because if not i will be continuing stressing myself.

my heart is troubled

2009-12-21T11:39:00.000+08:00

i have a lot of things to talk, to share.
but what i wanna say..

my heart is in troubled!
by a lot of things.
like a mist surrounded my paths
i cant find a way out.
im troubled.
feeling sad
i cried

im confused.
just as what i am writing
i wanted friends
i have a lot of friends
but who can i really talk to?
on one i can talk to but only a few
who are in music min
but only to Jesus (as always)
i crying out to you daddy god
i opened my heart to you.

who are my friends
true friends
im confused
my heart is hurt
i want to be friends with everyone who i know long
even those i know for a few days or weeks
even serving or work together.
whom also i knew them before
talked before
in my heart i truly confirm some who are my friends
even the closest and even the best
even trusted ones
and even those who trusted me.

"some" i doubt
but these "some" i really take them as friends or even more than friends in my heart
but.. do they take me as..?
im thinking very unknowning
hurting myself
as thoughts coming into my mind
it's like killing me

i felt myself have no confident
weak
but i know im strong and bold in Christ Jesus! amen

i am very sorry
i also condemn myself
i know should not
because Jesus had taken this cost.
it is such a challenge to me.
but no matter what
overall i still love everyone!
who are the closer, the closest and the best one and the one i know.

whats my calling?
whats my desire?
im confused
where's my peace?
i need to rest...
no more interest in doing things
i dont feel like doing anymore
but is that what god planted in me?
i need a answer god
i know i will continue doing the thing(course).
but what is my call to be?
u told me when im 21years old i will know my call
but why?

ohh daddy god
you are the truth and the light and the way
grace is here
love is you
thank you abba
in you
i have unmerited favour
as you are the "third party"
there's bond is every relationships
i believe in you
even it's break
you are the god of grace
favour
you restores every good
in abundance

~confused...

Sharing ~ fated/together when..

2009-12-03T17:31:00.000+08:00

There are kinda lots of things i wanna share. but the day before " the week" was busy and tired for sch and after that when i can take a rest i wanna just realli rest. haha. But, still blog is still the place where i can write watever i want (i suppose), because most of the stuff i wrote in this blog.

sometimes u may feel that why the way i write, i may put words that are interacting with ppl or lots of ppl, but the truth is i like to write in conversation type.

yeah.
ohh yeah,
wanna share some mv again, haha.
first video

-super junior, this korean band, so cool sia, most of them are christian. haha
actually i didnt know about it.
cool sia, i came to know when my friend send me a video of them singing to the lord.

song: "song for you"

such a wonderful song.
and one awesome thing i read is that siwon, one of the member, always find way to go church even they are in overseas. wow how amazing is this, a child of god hungry for God's word!

and next video is ayumi (again haha)
the song is very sad because she broke up with her boyfriend 2 years back
yeah.
one thing i like about ayumi is that, the songs she wrote are honest, they came from her heart and thinking, so to write songs is to express out what she feels. She doesnt care what the ppl will say about her, but she will just continue writing. i like that!

song: "Together when.."

We started to walk calmly and determinedly
With the same scar in our hearts
With our backs to each other
Without looking back

We believed
We found out one unchanged thing
But we felt it was changing
And took a step back
Yet another step back afterwards
So as not to be hurt

* I wanted to say "Thank you"
I couldn't say "Thank you"
Because it's like "Good-bye for ever"
And too sad

** Maybe I shall be born again to myself some day
And start a journey to seek for you

One day
When I happened to be puzzled a little
By a new and unfamiliar view
Which I must have chosen
The gentle wind just like you
Blew by me

*** I wanted to say "I love you"
I couldn't say "I love you"
But I feel it was both my biggest lie
And the truth

** (repeat)
*(repeat)
***(repeat)

Even if I'm born again to someone else
I'll start a journey to seek for you.

song: "fated"

Do you believe in fate --
A momentary encounter
That changes everything in your life
Before that?

We notice it the moment our eyes meet someone's
We come to feel it sure in contacting with him or her
But then once
We feel weak in the knees

* The wind strokes my cheeks and makes me feel real
Whispering softly that this is not an illusion at all

I've been thinking that I couldn't reach your voice
I've been thinking that this dream wouldn't come true
But the person before my eyes is
You see? No one else but you

Where does this road lead to
And how does it continue?
Even if I imagine them
It's of course that I have no clue

I feel the more I wish to be strong
The weaker my heart becomes in inverse proportion

I shouted your name in tears
I wished I wouldn't wake up, if it were a dream
Ah, the person before my eyes was
You see? No one else but you

* (repeat)

If only I had deserved your love
As many as the times you said you loved me
If only I had loved you
As many as the times I said I loved you

I gave up, thinking that I couldn't reach your voice
I gave up, thinking that this dream wouldn't come true
You see? Though the person before my eyes was
The real you

Sotsugyou Shashin

2009-11-28T23:27:00.000+08:00

this is a song i found when browsing the internet.
it's a very nice and beautiful song.

song: "卒業写真 (Graduation Photograph)" by Matsutoya Yumi

the lyrics:
-

Kanashii koto ga aru to Hiraku kawa no hyoushi Sotsugyou shashin no ano hito wa Yasashii me wo shiteru	When I'm feeling down I open the leather cover And in the graduation photo Is that person with the gentle eyes.
Machi de mikaketa toki Nani mo ienakatta Sotsugyou shashin no omokage ga Sono mama datta kara	The time I saw you in town I couldn't say a thing Because just like the photo You hadn't changed a bit.
Hitogomi ni nagasarete Kawatteyuku watashi wo Anata wa tokidoki Tooku de shikatte	Washed away in the crowd, It's changed me. Now and then, from afar You tell me off.
Hanashi kakeru you ni Yureru yanagi no shita wo Kayotta michi sae ima wa Mou densha kara miru dake	Beneath the willow trembling Like a voice speaking Is that path I used to take But now I only watch from the train
Ano koro no ikikata wo Anata wa wasurenaide Anata wa watashi no seishun sono mono	Don't ever forget The way we lived back then You are my youth.
Hitogomi ni nagasarete Kawatteyuku watashi wo Anata wa tokidoki Tooku de shikatte	Washed away in the crowd, It's changed me. Now and then, from afar You tell me off.

this song is sang by many singers but i chose to extract it from a drama which i didnt
watch before. But it very meaningful as the drama related to the song.
jap drama: "First Kiss"
sang by: YUI & Hideaki Tokunaga

4 awesome chinese movies coming up!

2009-11-28T20:40:00.000+08:00

AWESOME! four chinese movies coming up! ohh man, i feel the pride of Chinese! can u imagine that when all the chinese around the world united as one, like the other races. ohh man, the power and pride is so much greater than anyone else in the world! which it will lead back to the glorious days of history of the chinese empire, where the empire was so strong, powerful and prosperous! where the influence is so powerful and the world have to relied on Chinese.
but the only thing now, is china and Taiwan are still in arguments.. yup it is true that china now , is super strong, the economy is growing super fast and very prosperous now. like what my pastor had said of the prophecy he received , that there will have a "prosperity switch" between US and asia where what the US had experienced the prosperity before the asia will now have. as u can see ASEAN and China as getting to be or already going to be the great power, which are in asia! cool man. seeing that asean's and china's progress is very fast!

yeah Taiwan also getting better alot now ever since the new president took over.
isint awesome.
err btw, im not siding anyone i love westerners as well as asians especially chinese (because im proud of being chinese of the "good side") japanese (love their culture and of cos not only that. There are alot of reasons why i like them), korean (not because they are well-known of plastic surgery), taiwanese aborigines (where many are mixed blood with chinese, yeah haha because the population of chinese is so big where 98% are han chinese, some ppl are like, luo zhi xiang and amei) , malays.
okay stop being racist. haha.
hmmm all i can say i just being political person. yeah.
no wonder i did my personality test (DISC), it says that im "ics" and im a governor as a character.yeah.

Ohh yeah must watch sia! i doubt is not nice to watch!
and one more movie called "NINJA ASSASSIN"! YEA.

something i wanna say. "second chance"

2009-11-22T11:19:00.000+08:00

-----"through the years, a guy u met who was lost in the midst but yet found by Christ. Brought him to life. shines a wonderful light across him and lead him back into father's arms. went to church which is the Christ body. This guy realise or found his life changed/transform gloriously which didnt happen before. This guy started smile, no longer emo as he found the real God who loves him. Life filled with joy, no longer sad nor condemnation. Filled with love as Jesus is. always attend church services, and also serving in church for he know his father in heaven love him so much that HE sent His begotten son, Jesus Christ, to die for him. He is a justice god. when there's any event, no matter what, he will try his best to really attend or serve. He love to serve God. It is his desire, and also his desire and passion is to be in music, write songs though he no know YET how to play a guitar or even knowing chords, he will still write songs to his god abba/ Jesus from his heart and from bible. worship and praise him the almighty he knows, he got a new motto since ytd's service, "bringing everyone together to celebrate/ rejoice in the house of God/ to impact lives and also to let the world see, my god is love. He made a lot of friends in church, who he regarded as godly friends or even brothers and sisters who he will surely look to. They are such amazing ppl, who always run with God. haha. He love them all! He learn a lot in church, grows a lot and been sharpen, as the friends he had are true! But through the years, he still have (but no more longer have in future, amen!) a fear of rejection.. sometimes you may see him that he dun trust but , because he feared of being rejected. He hope this fear will never be in heart anymore as he continue to keep looking at Jesus. so through out the years or time even now (but no longer!) , some of the friends or leaders he met/make, it may seems that he abandoned or pretend dun know them and walked by and even being unsure that will some of them or they will(which he regarded as his friends) take him as friend or even more than friend ( he is confused) but he really want be friends and even more than friends with them or even still be. Sometimes he cried of not believing them.. hoping that they will understand that he dun like forsake, will you give him a second chance?
trust him?
He is really very happy to see that they are really friends or more than that for him. he is sure in his heart. "-----

short testimony

2009-11-15T08:03:00.000+08:00

ytd, youth services were awesome!! (as always, but ytd realli speaks to me, which i will share the next post since i gonna go for service now.)
Praise God, Praise Jesus for the anointing and presence.
I or i can say with the youth choir were having fun all the way, so enthusiastic, jumping or dancing, like letting urself free out, "be crazy or rejoice over God's glory". haha.
bring a difference to the ppl or especially letting the new-comers know that this is Christianity! Full of life, full of blessings, full of His glory, no one is lack of.. , just having fun and rejoice! a relationship with our abba Father.

ytd, pastor was sharing about restoration because i am the child of God, the believer of Christ!
and God will cause blessings to rained over me. "AS in the bible, rain speaks of plentiful blessings."

God is just so real!
ytd after dare service, praise and worship was so awesome, so anointed, just so GREAT! WOW I LOVE IT MAN! WOOT!
I just sing out of my lungs! and almost "lost my voice" i was like "omg!"
sh*t
how sia?
i did all i could, which is drink as much water as i can since my throat is dry too, maybe can help. And i did some SLS . and overall it did help but not as much.
suddenly, when i was siting one the platform, i prayed as i know my God heals! The healer lives in me.
i prayed for restoration for my voice, so i can sing freely, because i am here to worship my Jesus, my god, to bring everyone in to worship, cause a change to the ppl. to serve him. and my only gift i have for now is my voice/ vocal which is given by my abba god (since i have the passion).

ohh yeah btw, when i was praying for restoration, i dun know that pastor benjamin is gonna preach about restoration as i attending arrow service. haha.

and know what? u are right! as i believed! it come to past.
im healed! my voice is healed! my voice is recovered from glory to glory, although is like 80 or 90%
but god is still faithful.
when i listen to pastor benjamin preaching. im like wow. Praise God!
i quote:" If you keep looking at your symptoms, it wil not leave but if you put your eyes upon Jesus, the finished work, the cross, it's gone!" - the former rain and latter rain falls!"
wow, isnt it awesome! just believe Him.

and i did what he said.
and truly, it is completly healed and restored. Praise God! Hallelujah.
>>remember that when god restore years in you, He doesn't restore the same amount but more abundant!!
wow how gracious and wonderful is our God! our heavenly father!(:

i saw

2009-11-14T09:56:00.000+08:00

as i gonna turn off my computer.
suddenly i came to this song by Neil Sedaka, very interesting song, the music not bad although is quite old song but lyrics is nice. You can refer the song to our Abba God too.

Song: The Miracle

All my life
I've been a kind of lonely man
Searching high and low
Looking for my way
Then all at once
I saw you right in front of me
I knew right then and there
My lonely days were through

You're just a rose
That shimmers in the sun
And now I know
My life has just begun
You are the sweetest thing
That could ever, ever be
And you're a miracle to me

You fill my life
With tenderness and harmony
I never thought
That I'd be laughing once again
You fill the room
With something warm and wonderful
I can't imagine life
Without your precious love

You're just a rose
That shimmers in the sun
And now I know
My life has just begun
You are the sweetest thing
That could ever, ever be
And you're a miracle to me

Rivers bend rivers flow
Till the end of time
They keep flowing
Through eternity
Take me there
Sail away
Take me to the sea
You're a river that flows inside of me

You're just a rose
That shimmers in the sun
And now I know
My life has just begun
You are the sweetest thing
That I could ever, ever see
And you're a miracle to me

a song i just written

2009-11-14T09:32:00.000+08:00

such a wonderful and beautiful saviour, we have.
i wrote a new song (without chords) again. haha. hope to learn to play guitar after sch.
it's just so wonderful that i cant stop writing songs although i dun know any chords. But all is from my heart. His love and grace, the beautiful work on the cross. It's so amazing. No words can describe such a beautiful saviour we'all have. wow!

Song Title: This is the song i wrote to you.

I love you
i love you
my treasurer
my safe refugee
i love you god.

You're all i need
you're all i need
Jesus
saviour
mighty god

your grace
has proven me
your love
has proven me
i am yours forever
through the cross
the finished work

Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Jesus Christ
is king
great and mighty
all honour to you
you deserve all praises

I exalt you God
Abba father
your love
no one can compare with you

This is the song i wrote to you
from my heart
beautiful saviour.

part of me

2009-11-11T22:46:00.000+08:00

This is such a beautiful song. Filled with japan's environment!wow..
im quite touched by the music.

[below is the english translated]

Sometimes I think
That maybe, long before we were born
We shared
One life
Because even when our bodies are apart
It feels like our hearts are side by side

I always, always
Hear
A voice calling my name, my name
Please don’t cry anymore
I can feel your love

At some point I realised
That we were born apart
And because of that
We probably feel incomplete
As we pray for the same happiness
We’re carving the same wounds into our hearts

I’ll keep, keep calling
So that you never, never
Forget
Please don’t cry anymore
I won’t leave you alone or anything

I always, always
Hear
A voice calling my name, my name
Please don’t cry anymore
I can feel your love

I’ll love you
Forever, forever
I love you, you
Even if time
Changes everything
I’ll still love you

Sometimes I think
That maybe if we're reborn
We'll share
One life…

speech

2009-11-08T23:06:00.000+08:00

This is what my previous previous leader told me before, and i know it is good because it is from God,>>>
"never make decisions or go by emotions nor based on flesh, go by or lead by the spirit of wisdom of Jesus, God.
It is okay to be emotional, but not causing you back into flesh again."

pastor prince said today for the sunday service.>>>
"the flesh will also getting fresher than a child, that i am renewed like the eagles and soaring in the sky."- because of what Jesus had done for me on the cross.

---be continued..

you all i need

2009-11-08T09:47:00.000+08:00

Hillsong Kids: You Are All I Need lyrics

You see me when I'm sleeping
You know when I'm awake
You hear me when I pray to You
Every word I say

I know You are my Father
The greatest One of all
You never ever fail me
My friend forever more

You're all I need
You're all I need
You're all I need, in this world

You walk with me and guide me
My heart is in Yours hands
You speak your word, I hear You Lord
I live by Your commands

You change me from the inside
And turned the bad to good
You loved from my very first day
When I didn't know You could

I feel You in my heart
In my heart
Oh God (Repeat)

-------------------------------------------------------------------------
-You all i need, by Hillsong.

You're all I need
Everything I'd ever hoped for
I've found in You
Everything I'll ever need
You're all I am
Everything I've ever hoped to be
I found it all in You
And all I see
Everything I've ever searched for
[ Find more Lyrics on www.mp3lyrics.org/eWP ]
I've seen in You
Everything I've dreamed
And Your Spirit leads me on
In the Grace of Jesus Christ
This hope it fills my soul
All glory to Your Name
All power to Your Name
All majesty and all honour
All glory to Your Name
Your Kingdom comes to reign
In the glory of Your Name
In the power of Your Spirit
The glory of God
All glory to Your Name

-I will be always there, to glorify my Abba God, Jesus! Writing songs to glorify Him and write about the beauty of His grace and Him alone. Glorify, lifting His name up high above all nations, to let the world know that JESUS IS LOVE WHO DELIEVER ME , MY GOD IS LOVE, THAT HE IS GREAT I AM! How awesome is He man!

When i fall down, you pick me up! Thank you abba!

just as i am typing these words, i thought of this song, "you are my all in all"
such a beautiful song that also reminds me of His goodness and "He is for me".
This song i sang in care group last friday.
to remind everyone. and also friends and bros who sang, love it, because it hasnt been for long time.

--song: you are my all in all.

You are my strength when I am weak
You are the treasure that I seek
You are my all in all
Seeking You as a precious jewel
Lord, to give up I'd be a fool
You are my all in all

Jesus, Lamb of God
Worthy is Your name
Jesus, Lamb of God
Worthy is Your name

Taking my sin, my cross, my shame
Rising up again I bless Your name
You are my all in all
When I fall down You pick me up
When I am dry You fill my cup
You are my all in all

Jesus, Lamb of God
Worthy is Your name
Jesus, Lamb of God
Worthy is Your name

such a beautiful song sia,
i remember that last friday, the presence and the anointing and the flow is there, so beautifully caught in His wonderful arms of love. I LOVE HIM. my god you are so great!
i just cant live without you.

Friday caregroup, i lead the care group, PW was good, word that was preached into everyone's heart was good!
"Jesus is in the center of our life", "put Him in the center", " always revolve around Jesus", "Look to Him".

Although i realli can feel the flow, the presence of His, as i worship, leading the care group into worship. i believe 2 guitarist, ron and pual, also can feel it as they are playing. But i hope everyone have the same too.
"let free urself" and sing out to Him.
It is good to sing out freely from ur heart. Rejoice okay? know in ur heart that Jesus loves you, and He wants to let everyone to caught in the worship too, because that is the time of the very best. :)

yeah.

----Jesus you are all i need.

Music

2009-11-03T23:28:00.000+08:00

Music is such a beautiful piece. I love music. This is my life. It is just so beautiful.
Music is a powerful but a friendly tool. It is also a good influence. With any things used can just create music. Music had a super wide range of genre. How wonderful is that. Music is my life so as Christ is.

Song (I wrote): You are my Hope.

you told me not to be upset
stop condemning myself
as the word became flesh
bore all my sins and faults

told me not to be condemned as He is
condemned on the cross

whatever I facing
knowing i have JESUS
who have lighten up my way
brought me to the righteous (and the cross)
and leave the loser of me behind
I'm born again afresh. ohh~

You are my hope
my tower of strength
a gracious god who i look unto
brought life abundance
i exalt ur name(2x)
Jesus Christ
you are my hope

Hallelujah
Hallelujah (continuous)
I exalt ur name up high.
saviour.

as He laid His hands on me
oh, blessings anointing flows
richly
there's no lack in Christ
i'm caught in ur favour
you brings me joy
Oh lord, you are all together lovely.
Jesus.

Beautiful Lord

2009-11-03T22:44:00.001+08:00

It is a very beautiful song, that i love. I think some of u would have listen to this song before, by LEELAND.

Song: Beautiful lord

When the storm is raging all around me
You are the peace that calms
My troubled sea
And the cares of this world
Darken my day
You are the light that shines
And shows me the way

Oh, the beauty of Your majesty
On the cross You showed Your love for me!

Beautiful Lord
Awesome and mighty
I’m captured by this love I see
Beautiful Lord
Tender and holy
Your mercy brings me to my knees
It’s Your mercy that has made me free
Beautiful Lord

When my sin is all that I can see
Your grace remains the shelter that I seek
And when my weakness is all I can give
Your gentle Spirit gives me strength again
And oh, the beauty of Your majesty
On the cross You showed Your love for me

Beautiful Lord
Awesome and mighty
I’m captured by this love I see
Beautiful Lord
Tender and holy
Your mercy brings me to my knees
It’s Your mercy that has made me free
Beautiful Lord

And I am lifted by Your love to sing!
It’s Your mercy that has made me free!
And I am lifted by Your love to sing!
It’s Your mercy that has made me free!

Oh, the beauty of Your majesty
On the cross You showed Your love for me!

Beautiful Lord
Awesome and mighty
I’m captured by this love I see
Beautiful Lord
Tender and holy
Your mercy brings me to my knees
It’s Your mercy that has made me free
Beautiful Lord

You’re beautiful, my Lord
You’re beautiful, my Lord

Friends. or even i called brothers.

2009-11-01T11:34:00.000+08:00

This topic just came into my heart when i reflected myself on all my friends, since the memory in secondary school till now. Friends and even friends became so so so close that we called ourselves as brothers. Isnt it awesome. haha. Friends realli meant in my heart, it is important to me, although im quiet in the past (refer to secondary sch except during sec 5). Really! They really give me fun, laughter and joy, friends/bros who will be there for you no matter what situation you facing, they just stand in faith with you, whereas not the type of friends that will run away or avoid you when u have problems overcoming you. Also friends that will correct you when u r wrong. Thats what i called brothers/ friends. they are so great . Didnt want to lose them at all but thank God i have you, that u will secure all , and can cast my cares unto you if not u will see me emo again.

The picture above i put up, significant about friends that gone through, "thick and thin " and laughter and fun.

I would want to put up some of the pictures de, but too many so didnt, if want just go my facebook.

Friends and brothers are important to me same goes to my family. They are important. friends and brothers are because i dun have any siblings, so quite lonely, no one in the family that i can talk with who i feel i can really talk with anything. Not because i cant talk to my parents but because they are busy and maybe a burden to them or even cause them worry, which i dun want.
friends/ brothers are important to me, really from my heart. Since i was very young, a small kid, i dun have friends, sad la, even dun realli have a "childhood" dun realli have any fun. During primary school have no friends at all.. So always alone. I agree with my bro dean that most of the time, a single child, he or she will talk to himself. That is me. After pri, i told myself that i will want to make friends with others when i move on to secondary. It's like a new start to me.
During secondary i made friends but not many, its like only a few because i still bring quiet due to past habits. haiz but i thank god my abba that i no longer is because God caused i changed in me, isnt that great!?haha. And godly friends that Daddy god placed in my life cause changed for good. Thats so great! In my heart, godly friends are such a wonderful ppl, that they are like the number 1, yeah but course my secondary school friends too 2nd,haha.Realli! ranked 1st and 2nd are important.

Godly friends are such a wonderful ppl and great, fun ppl. That sometimes we will do some crazy stuff, haha. I love them lo. When i was away from home to penang for my ite course study trip which came to be, everyone was like having a holiday.haha, i realli missed my godly friends a lot! (my church friends/bro) I spend the most time with my church friends who are godly friends that the bond is made so strong. The bond is there lo. God is great and generous and gracious. I love u daddy god. Godly friends realli cant compare to worldly friends, except sec sch friends

[ because can imagine 5 YEARS! together, studying having lessons together, relationships with one and another will just build up. All of us just became so close. Even sometimes there's conflicts or dislikes. These cause a more understanding to each other. That also brought us together and bond. As friends, sometimes we may just quarrel, which may seen as bad but no really because most time we just care each other, yeah! Can u imagine 5 years, such a long time! I really miss them lo, when meet them or saw them i will rejoice, haha. so happy.. and just talk to each other, spend time with them which was quite long hours, of course.
Like past few days i met Donavan, yeah haha. i was SO happy to see him. yeah. Started to talk to each other, and dun fee like leaving, BUT HAVE TO LA, because i have a Praise and worship section for CIP , with my arrow cluster. BUT BUT Im late fro the CIP because i was talking to him, haha. Hard to meet up with him la, and also friends in poly, because they busy nowadays.haiz. Ohh yeah last friday, met Zhi wei, haha, was surprised to see him. I thin kmy fringe blocked some of my vision thats why didnt notice him, haha. didnt talk much BECAUSE i was so tired due to sch projects.
and also like the teacher's day, i so happy that to see them! That i PONTANK school. HAHA. Spending time with them the whole day, such a good memory which i remember always! Ohh yeah, also seeing my teachers i was happy, because 5years lei! realli lo, most of them(teachers) they always there for me, i mean the class. Isnt that caring? haha. I remember on the teachers' day, i just spend the whole day with my friends, meeting the 3groups, yeah so fun. haha! Realli hope to meet them soon!!! Hope cheryl realli put up her bdae bbq, yeah and call all of them, hopefully they all are free.]
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In me, ppl who realli i love, meant alot in my life is my church friends or i can say my godly friends who are christians, yeah, and my secondary school friends who some called as bro too!

There are realli just too much to say about all of them. Great man.haha Thank you Jesus.Thank you abba god. Can u imagine spending time with all of them (my friends/bros) all the time, years , that is so awesome! They are friends who I can trust and have faith in them/ standing in faith with them, so awesome! Even those who i just make or even those who i started to bond with!yeah haha. Isnt that awesome?

Love them all.

I think i will write the same topic PART 2, HAHAHAHA. because there are realli things i want to say, from the depth of my heart! especially my church friends!my brothers in Christ!

a song i written.

2009-10-29T18:29:00.000+08:00

This is a song without chords, haha. This is song that wrote on last sat (24/10/09). When im alone at home, no one calls me out but later on kailin and yeu mahn called me out. And later found out that friends whom i bond with/ very close with, like brothers whom i had , left me behind and go for fun on their own. Though i dun "play", they just leave me aside and didnt tell me at all. I didnt mean to tell me like giving a report but a sense of saying why better than i would thought that you guys went to "play"(lan) so to cast me out. maybe? but i doubt, its maybe. (which they thought i dun play) (reason i dun play is because to safe some money and also i spent too much time on playing last year. I forgiven them because they dun know and they are my close godly brothers.) But still i felt i had left behind. A small arrow seems to have just shoot through my heart. i dun know what to do. disappointed or sad?

And during that time when i'm alone listening christian songs and cellular songs, watching youtube videos,

i have the heart and flow to write the song down, as His love(as always) moved my heart.

Song: I Love You

Lord i cried out to you
your love have touches my heart
you are mighty to save us all

you're the only one
I adore
what i will be like
how would i have been
without you

You had changed my life
A glorious life i have now
It's what you have done on the cross
The finished work
brings hope and joy
peace dwell within me

your love have shown me
such a great love
That i have never felt before
brings me hope and joy, gives me strength to move on
unending love
you said to me
I am for you
my son
I love you always
giving my glory to you
blessings and favours.

I love you
This is what you said
I love you
you changed me
I love you
grace abounds in my life
I love you
I am seen in Christ
I love you Jesus Christ

Though my wrong doings, mistakes, sins in life
Daddy God you see those in Jesus
On the cross
The lamb of God
the eternal sacrifice
You have forgiven me
For who i am
You love me
Though I'm undeserved
Lord i bow down on my knees
Before you,
My King
the only I adore
what i will be like
How would i have been
without you.

Its that simple? I do willing from heart.

2009-10-29T16:57:00.000+08:00

I just love to serve. For Him. This is me.
when i know i can serve more, i will gladly do. Do not worry about time as i know it's sufficient.
And God will multiply my time for any stuff, like sleep. Haha.

Im glad when i know i can be part of Dare Integration since last friday(23/10/09), to serve for arrow ministry.

------Its that simple? I do willing from heart.------

Dancing

2009-10-29T00:34:00.001+08:00

Do you know that God and His angels always hang out in Mount Zion and leave at all?
Where grace dwell on that.

This is where i am now, in grace of His wonders.
Full of life and eternal love never fails.
No poverty.
No sickness, everyone are healthy and strong.
No lack of His blessings and favours. No matter who he/she is. deserving or undeserving.
Because of His blood/ the cross.
The mighty saviour.
Experiencing His goodness and mercy.
Everyone are always dancing
Everyone have faith in Him (God)
Believe Him.
Everyone just having fun always, letting every worries in their mind no more.
Full of Joy and shalom.
Singing with all I am.
Always dancing with no fear nor afraid.
Motivated by His love and revelation to spread good news to the world.
Impact lives to the ppl through Him .
Where God always causes His face to shine upon His children and gracious to them.
Overflowing of blessings which different "high levels"
Things always getting better, not bad.

Before that...

2009-10-28T18:40:00.000+08:00

Before that i wanted to post something. I wanted to share about a song or 2. Its a jap song. haha If u guys realised , most of the time i shared chinese and jap songs because ,to me, their music it's the best goes with rhythm, always sounds so beautifully and some or most of it goes emotionally. But for vocal wise, the western and jap singers are always the best to listen to and learn from. For Chinese singers, there are not many who have good vocal(songs), most good ones i found are new singers who mostly are from 超級星光大道, it's a chinese international singing competition. That is why i still prefer jap and western singers, as there are wide range of styles to listen and learn as these are good singers. Yeah.

Okay the song, a song that i like when i heard about it was when i was watching this jap drama called 'Maou' / 魔王 recently. The plot is very interesting and somehow exciting as they cant find any evidence to proof that the lawyer named Naruse Ryo/Manaka Tomoo is the real murder through all the hard work on findings.

- "it is a remake of the popular suspense drama The Devil that was aired in Korea last 2 years. Ohno Satoshi played the role of a two-faced lawyer, one of which is a kind hearted soul and the other who is plotting revenge, using his brilliant mind, on the person who killed his relative. On the other hand, Ikuta Toma played the double lead role of the man, who has become a detective due to his dark past, who is pursuing the mysterious series of murders and fighting against the devil (maou)." - extracted from mysoju.

The song not bad rite? I like the song man, during the chorus, it seems to rise up the atmosphere in me. yeah. Hmm.. i think i kinda like Arashi's songs now(haha), after i browse through some of their songs as i heard about this song. Btw i feel that their (arashi) dancing was funny.HAHA.

I felt that japanese songs are always sounds so good. No matter it's the traditional or modern songs they always sounds best. (Better than chinese traditional songs). Like the jap singers, they are good, like ayumi hamasaki, arashi, news, utada hikaru and mai kuraki, etc. there too many to good singers to be written, yeah. and I still discovering more.

Basically i like songs that are written from their heart, honesty, and songs that are written about how this person feel about something and thoughts, which are kinda a personal songs written, or songs that bring meaning and joy, entertainment to everyone or to some group of ppl, better than writing full of crap or make up story or even write songs that are love or hate which sounds so boring. But of course not the love of god which is so amazing and true, that really can feel it in my heart. Yeah.

Thats all i wanted to say.

Maybe?... alone?

2009-10-27T22:16:00.000+08:00

Maybe?...alone? Nope. because i still have Jesus. Abba God who always loves me and never leaves me aside, gives me comfort and strength to move on. Thank you.

my delieverer by Chris Tomlin

2009-10-25T10:20:00.000+08:00

I will wait for You to move
For Your mighty hand to save
When the trouble water rise
You are my hiding place
You are my hiding place

You walls are salvation
Your gates are praise

My Deliverer
My Deliverer
My Deliverer
Is the Lord

Who is like You mighty God
Who can take me from Your hand
As I walk with You in freedom
You're the Rock on which I stand
You're the Rock on which I stand

a musical. origin from drama.

2009-10-24T10:15:00.000+08:00

i would want to write something else but when i was watching a taiwan variety show which was a competition "超級星光大道"
but ytd was their TV company 40th anniversary [中視40台慶] . So they were performing the whole time, and are great, they are realli good! some are musical, some are singing out their story, which was so wonderful which gradually touches my heart greatly especially the last few ones, which i gonna put it up here(below), as they were acting so good, putting themselves into the story and singing out of emotions, bring out the story into live. It touches my heart a lot, and i cried Especially the new singer/actress which i mentioned on my previous post "曾沛慈", she was so awesome! I like her! she's good in music like singing and also in acting where she put herself in the story, ever since she had acted in a idol drama called "終極三國" where she had gained experience. It is very nice, but dont know for u guys, because this maybe not the type of show u will watch.haha.

vocal

2009-10-21T23:28:00.000+08:00

Hmmm, as what i post just now. I realli thank god i have the voice to sing out praises to Him and bring fore life and spread the gospel to impact lives through singing and the anointing! I realli thank god for that, and also bring joy and entertainment to everyone. Im realli happy to do that!(:
ever since i got hold the right way to sing i was full of joy. smiles. haha. using the right vocal.
Singing /or music is my passion. It never changed since i was very young..

still have a photo of me as a young kid, holding the mic, haha.

SLS is awesome!!! It's really by the grace of God lo.. haha

Hallelujah. i gonna reach my head voice soon! yea!

sharing music

2009-10-21T23:14:00.000+08:00

Yeah, just wanna talk this in short. as im working on my projects i came to listen to songs, especially those who are song writer and music composer. I realli like them man. Because it's their personal! Thats why i do have too, writing songs but as music composer is yet to come.heh.
Ok, as i working on my sch projects i came to listening the songs and downloading songs, nice one, and took me more than a hour because along the way, i got attracted by other bands and singers especially singer-song writer. yeah.haha.
which i may share some of them in near future? haha.

Ok i gonna share a chinese song. yeah. its nice. but dun know for u.haha.
Im sorry if u not interested in chinese songs.

Btw gonna intro this rock band. named 東城衞 ["dong cheng wei"].
this girl is awesome, i like her voice sia. She realli brought fore this song's "story" through her singing and emotions.
listen:

yea, so not bad rite??haha. btw the 1st song, the intro was good!
btw 曾沛慈 , the lead singer of the band, way u go man. she's the one talked about.

tired

2009-10-21T07:02:00.000+08:00

I'm sick and tired! of my sch work, architecture!!! it's realli a very demanding course! haiz.
should have listen to abba god, for going to accounting after experiencing my current course. because after walking in this journey i realised i didnt realli want to do it for my whole life but something else. haiz. but nevermind, what had been its done.Thank god i have jesus, if not i not sure what i gonna do..

The word is alive

2009-10-13T16:45:00.000+08:00

The word is alive!

Im called to be a conqueror. and my passion is to impact and bring difference to the sons and daughters of God, through the gospel of grace. Wanna see life change gloriously.
Music is my life and my whole.
Through my journey now, though im studying space design in architecture. I know it is a journey i have to go through which will cause me to grow more and receive. Jesus always continue to lifting us up higher, and i gonna lift up his name up high.
I love to spend my whole life in music to bring great entertainment to ppl and mostly to impact lives through the music filled with the wonders of grace, thats why i started to serve Him in choir. As i have thought of it, and as i walk, i intend to grow in mind/ strength and knowledge, even wisdom, because of Jesus.
No matter what challenges i have to face, or I can say is that though they are giants blocking my way. I will see them as huge blessings from my abba god who turn things/situations from bad to good. He is my god, my father. I will cast all my cares and worries unto Him as He said " use me. I am ur comfort, ur conqueror.".

The word is powerful and everlasting. I know I am not lack as i have Jesus, my god who is my provider and my delieverer! Im the heir of the world and seed of abraham which it grows to a tree and a harvest and bear fruit and continuously it shall be grow more , like a cycle. Where is the blessings of abraham fruitfully abounds in me!(: Thank you abba.

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THE WORD IS ALIVE BY CASTING CROWNS

Looking out from His throne, the Father of light and of men
Chose to make Himself known and show us the way back to Him
Speaking wisdom and truth into the hearts of peasants and kings
He began to unveil the Word that would change the course of all things

With eyes wide open, all would see

The Word is alive
And it cuts like a sword through the darkness
With a message of life to the hopeless and afraid
Breathing life into all who believe
The Word is alive
And the world and its glories will fade
But His truth, it will not pass away
It remains yesterday and forever the same
The Word is alive

Simple strokes on a page
Eternity's secrets revealed, carried on from age to age
It speaks Truth to us even still
And as the rain falls from Heaven, feeds the earth before it returns
Lord, let Your Word fall on us and bring forth the fruit You deserve

With eyes wide open, let us see

The Word is alive
His Word is alive

arms of love

2009-10-05T18:31:00.000+08:00

I sing a simple song of love
To my Savior, to my Jesus
I'm grateful for the things you've done
My loving Savior, my precious Jesus

My heart is glad that you've called me your own
There's no place I'd rather be

In your arms of love
In your arms of love
Holding me still
Holding me near
In your arms of love

2009-10-05T14:31:00.000+08:00

Here there!
I have moved my blog from punkperfectionistee.blogspot to this.
I felt that its time to moved cause quite bored of my old one.

Think that u guys who got this NEW link (blog) should be from my Facebook :D
yeap.

So "welcome to my world" Haha..