never come back

tired of life

wanna to start a fresh new life

surely things i will miss

like family and true friends.

True Love.

But what is the meaning of love?

People in this world, are lost like lost sheeps

what is the meaning of love?

heart is empty..

transgression increases..

-because some times "things may eat you up"...

- like an eagle which is always soaring and mighty as it was, but when it got of His prey, the eagle couldn't let go or it didn't want to let go, although its prey had hurt him. Because the eagle couldn't let go, it's hurt and killed by its prey.

which can be say that that's no longer the eagles's prey.

i love electronic dance, i mean the music genre. I love quite alot of genre, this is one of them.

and, her new song! kinda like her, she's HOT.

I felt like, i really love blogging. Although i prefer it to be private, i still love to share.

It's alright, because not many read my blog, maybe some passer-by or someone, haha.

So it can be still kinda private?

Writing songs,

hmm.. since young, like 9 year old, i never thought of writing songs, dun even have the interest in writing, except when i was sec 2, i remember, cause that's the 1st time i start writing.

Because i felt that that is the way of how i express my heart out which i starting to write songs on chinese. (i love music alot since i was 3? i guess. And i remember by a photo of me singing with a mic. i love singing then, 3yr old. can you imagine it grows to be a passion until today, though in the past it doesnt sounds good, maybe i didnt use a correct technique. But i am very sure that today i can sing well because of Christ Jesus. His glory in my life.) Until today i felt writing songs in chinese really express out a lot of my view or things in my heart. As you know chinese language has a very rich vocabulary. But, every time i wanna write about something, the words i used isnt enough to express out what i wanna say from my heart, some more i do not know about any music instrument or even musically gifted. So i gave up!

(i still kept the notebook , its a memory man.)

Its really god after knowing Him, knowing what my desires, passions and dreams i had which i believe is God, that placed all these in my heart. Until i knew Christ, i slowly felt i been musically gifted thought i do not know how to play any instrument (but i wanna learn for my songs), i can feel i am flowing in the rhythm of music. I love writing songs. He gifted me like singing, an anointed voice, song writing which became better and better, glory to glory, for myself as what i see i know is better because this is what Daddy God taught me. But i know i have to let ppl see, maybe like sean goh or joy or kailin or maybe someone else, so i can learn more, as they can see what area i can improve. Somemore they are all placed around me by God! I know they are most welcome to see and help me?.. i actually believe, haha. because angie told me. but im still not dare yet! until when i ready ba. i know it wont be forever like this, if u know what i mean. Because i have Christ! He is my hope. A hope that is alive, so true!

He had prepared a path for me. a righteous path. that i will learn things along the way. receiving things, amazing things. challenges along the way for me to learn for good. ETC.

What i know is, "He had gone before me and He said is GOOD!VERY GOOD!. "

so im kinda excited at most time! :D

One day, i doubt of myself or even kinda insult the gift of writings that Daddy God gave me? (because i asked Daddy God, the gift of writings because i really really so love to write songs for him! for His glory! or even cellular songs but not really that, cause it will contain fruits of life.) Of am i really writing songs in a right way or did i write it well? etc.

i got depressed with it, almost give up writing. But, one day i read brooke faser blog. One of the post titled :"songwriting series part 2". I read it, and it proves that i am writing in a way like her, except that i dun have any music instrument, so no music but melody. Btw it also tells me that writing songs there's no fixed way to write a song. yeah.

btw this is what i got into. simply it said that the melody (that i apply for a song) will speaks more than a thousand words than of what i had written in a song.

this what she wrote "

Cohesion with Lyric
One of the key question I always ask myself about my songs is: “Is my melody mirroring what my lyric is saying?” (and vice versa). I usually find that one will always point me toward the other.

With C.S. Lewis Song, ............. I wrote multiple sets of lyrics for that song before the right words began to form, in the right order. The sets of lyrics I had written prior to the right ones were perfectly fine, but they weren’t what the melody was saying. The melody wasn’t flippant or boisterous – it was delicate, searching, serious – and so pointed me away from what the words shouldn’t be.

"

so i kinda motivated, and continue to write.haha.

Writing songs became my passion slowly.

sometimes i really do not know why, every time when i really felt giving up or stop writing songs because im tired and songs i wrote no nobody see b4 except a close friend of mine, and i am very scare and afraid, if i let ppl see or read the songs i wrote, i may get a hurting or disappointed comment to me. Supernaturally i'm motivated again. And sometimes i felt like give up writing because i dun know what the shit to write, though i am so overwhelmed to write something. (but of cos, i'm just being anxious). His mercy and favour is upon me always.

Friends will tell me verses from Philippians 4:6-7. It happens more than one time. By the way its coincidence. Or sometimes some testimonies. Or i remember on that day i felt like stop writing, on that day is youth choir pract. and joy was talking to us about something. I remember one thing she said " keep writing, no matter what, dun stop. Its a gift", as she talking about writing or talent stuff. I think is about the open mic.

Is like, when i fall, he picked me up again, but raise me up higher glory.

As im writing, suddenly i felt like writing some hip or hot song, dance! "electronic dance"-genre. "電音"

My soul, spirit is boost for His glory..

this is the song to you...

Is this the whole picture
Or is it just the start?
Is this the way you love me?
You're capturing my heart
I used to try and walk alone
But I've begun to grow
And when you tell me just to rest
I'm finally letting go
I let go

And I'm here to stay
Nothing can separate us
And I know, I'm ok
You cradle me gently
Wrapped in your arms.... I'm home

I'm seeing so much clearer
Looking through your eyes
I could never find a safer place
Even if I tried
All the times I've needed you
You've never left my side
I'm clinging to your every word
Don't ever let me go
Don't let go

And I'm here to stay
Nothing can separate us
And I know, I'm ok
You cradle me gently
Wrapped in your arms.... I'm home
I'm home...(ohoh ohoh ohoh ohoh)
I'm wrapped in your arms.

And I'm here to stay
Nothing can separate us
And I know, I'm ok
You cradle me gently
Wrapped in your arms
And I'm here to stay
Nothing can separate us
And I know, I'm ok
You cradle me gently
Wrapped in your arms.... I'm home
I'm home

this(below) is what i need. the song (above) reminded me, and voiced out my heart.