I felt like, i really love blogging. Although i prefer it to be private, i still love to share.

It's alright, because not many read my blog, maybe some passer-by or someone, haha.

So it can be still kinda private?

Writing songs,

hmm.. since young, like 9 year old, i never thought of writing songs, dun even have the interest in writing, except when i was sec 2, i remember, cause that's the 1st time i start writing.

Because i felt that that is the way of how i express my heart out which i starting to write songs on chinese. (i love music alot since i was 3? i guess. And i remember by a photo of me singing with a mic. i love singing then, 3yr old. can you imagine it grows to be a passion until today, though in the past it doesnt sounds good, maybe i didnt use a correct technique. But i am very sure that today i can sing well because of Christ Jesus. His glory in my life.) Until today i felt writing songs in chinese really express out a lot of my view or things in my heart. As you know chinese language has a very rich vocabulary. But, every time i wanna write about something, the words i used isnt enough to express out what i wanna say from my heart, some more i do not know about any music instrument or even musically gifted. So i gave up!

(i still kept the notebook , its a memory man.)

Its really god after knowing Him, knowing what my desires, passions and dreams i had which i believe is God, that placed all these in my heart. Until i knew Christ, i slowly felt i been musically gifted thought i do not know how to play any instrument (but i wanna learn for my songs), i can feel i am flowing in the rhythm of music. I love writing songs. He gifted me like singing, an anointed voice, song writing which became better and better, glory to glory, for myself as what i see i know is better because this is what Daddy God taught me. But i know i have to let ppl see, maybe like sean goh or joy or kailin or maybe someone else, so i can learn more, as they can see what area i can improve. Somemore they are all placed around me by God! I know they are most welcome to see and help me?.. i actually believe, haha. because angie told me. but im still not dare yet! until when i ready ba. i know it wont be forever like this, if u know what i mean. Because i have Christ! He is my hope. A hope that is alive, so true!

He had prepared a path for me. a righteous path. that i will learn things along the way. receiving things, amazing things. challenges along the way for me to learn for good. ETC.

What i know is, "He had gone before me and He said is GOOD!VERY GOOD!. "

so im kinda excited at most time! :D

One day, i doubt of myself or even kinda insult the gift of writings that Daddy God gave me? (because i asked Daddy God, the gift of writings because i really really so love to write songs for him! for His glory! or even cellular songs but not really that, cause it will contain fruits of life.) Of am i really writing songs in a right way or did i write it well? etc.

i got depressed with it, almost give up writing. But, one day i read brooke faser blog. One of the post titled :"songwriting series part 2". I read it, and it proves that i am writing in a way like her, except that i dun have any music instrument, so no music but melody. Btw it also tells me that writing songs there's no fixed way to write a song. yeah.

btw this is what i got into. simply it said that the melody (that i apply for a song) will speaks more than a thousand words than of what i had written in a song.

this what she wrote "

Cohesion with Lyric
One of the key question I always ask myself about my songs is: “Is my melody mirroring what my lyric is saying?” (and vice versa). I usually find that one will always point me toward the other.

With C.S. Lewis Song, ............. I wrote multiple sets of lyrics for that song before the right words began to form, in the right order. The sets of lyrics I had written prior to the right ones were perfectly fine, but they weren’t what the melody was saying. The melody wasn’t flippant or boisterous – it was delicate, searching, serious – and so pointed me away from what the words shouldn’t be.

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so i kinda motivated, and continue to write.haha.

Writing songs became my passion slowly.

sometimes i really do not know why, every time when i really felt giving up or stop writing songs because im tired and songs i wrote no nobody see b4 except a close friend of mine, and i am very scare and afraid, if i let ppl see or read the songs i wrote, i may get a hurting or disappointed comment to me. Supernaturally i'm motivated again. And sometimes i felt like give up writing because i dun know what the shit to write, though i am so overwhelmed to write something. (but of cos, i'm just being anxious). His mercy and favour is upon me always.

Friends will tell me verses from Philippians 4:6-7. It happens more than one time. By the way its coincidence. Or sometimes some testimonies. Or i remember on that day i felt like stop writing, on that day is youth choir pract. and joy was talking to us about something. I remember one thing she said " keep writing, no matter what, dun stop. Its a gift", as she talking about writing or talent stuff. I think is about the open mic.

Is like, when i fall, he picked me up again, but raise me up higher glory.

As im writing, suddenly i felt like writing some hip or hot song, dance! "electronic dance"-genre. "電音"

My soul, spirit is boost for His glory..